Living life as a 18- year old is pretty hard, all while maintaining Father's Law. First theirs knowing everything going down around the world, and everybody you speak to about the subject try to water it down or ignore it. Then theirs the Loneliness at school, theirs never truly anybody on the same page as you. The few friends you have are never on the same page as you, even when they try to fit in my world(Lunch conversations are about shlong sizes, sex; among other things). Then vise versa for me, I've never felt like I was apart of the crowd.
Then theirs Subway, working their is pretty easy(just doing it with school makes it difficult). I literally had to tell my manager I'd quit if they didn't give me Saturday's off and honestly I felt Father with me on that day. The beautiful women though, it's hard to think that I might be a virgin my whole life(I know, its funny), but I'm serious. The way I think of the Love of my life is, I already met her and she's already somewhere else and yady yady yah(she's not dead, shake my head). Okay, but all these women nowadays have everything out, like basically naked; all the while their husbands are standing right next to them(talk about a twist in the marriage, you want your women to be looked at, like she's available, "good grief"). The only day I have off is Saturday and Praise Yahusha; because I honestly would probably be consumed by wrath if I had to work every single day of the calendar. Though theirs some good moments during the day blessings, the sky is clear, beautiful colors, imagining one day their will be a queen for me. Talk about man isn't good to be alone, I tell you right now, I have lived the cross of loneliness and I'll tell you also that the day I asked Yahusha to be my Dad(more personal, maybe I'll tell my story one day). It has truly made me strong to take on the whole world physically, mentally, and spiritually.
Let's talk about anime, superheroes were my go to in the younger days which wasn't even that long ago, but I thought if I had a hero's mindset that I could impress my Father and sure enough I believe it did. Though the idea of a hero has changed in the past few years and through this I can't hold this distraction. Its too much, Hero's are applauded for killing, and the attack on Christianity has spread into the shows.
I've always felt alone, knowing that Father is with me, knowing that the angel is just sitting on the chair acknowledging me. I can tell you everyone, that I truly appreciate all of you, I see the smiles of happiness, the beauty that you hold onto, and the knowledge you keep hidden inside you. Believe it or not, its almost graduation time for me; where I graduate from being a senior to the world, where the Father has showed me the truth, the world is flat, the people in power are either ignorant or consumed by wickedness(I don't care if you're supporter of Trump, I only follow the will the Father shows me), and people that you know can't be shoved into info. all at one moment. All you can do is pray(constantly), and be patient for the Father to come and pick His Fruit.
Forever Loved; Forever Appreciated -Jun