Living life as a 18- year old is pretty hard, all while maintaining Father's Law. First theirs knowing everything going down around the world, and everybody you speak to about the subject try to water it down or ignore it. Then theirs the Loneliness at school, theirs never truly anybody on the same page as you. The few friends you have are never on the same page as you, even when they try to fit in my world(Lunch conversations are about shlong sizes, sex; among other things). Then vise versa for me, I've never felt like I was apart of the crowd.
Then theirs Subway, working their is pretty easy(just doing it with school makes it difficult). I literally had to tell my manager I'd quit if they didn't give me Saturday's off and honestly I felt Father with me on that day. The beautiful women though, it's hard to think that I might be a virgin my whole life(I know, its funny), but I'm serious. The way I think of the Love of my life is, I already met her and she's already somewhere else and yady yady yah(she's not dead, shake my head). Okay, but all these women nowadays have everything out, like basically naked; all the while their husbands are standing right next to them(talk about a twist in the marriage, you want your women to be looked at, like she's available, "good grief"). The only day I have off is Saturday and Praise Yahusha; because I honestly would probably be consumed by wrath if I had to work every single day of the calendar. Though theirs some good moments during the day blessings, the sky is clear, beautiful colors, imagining one day their will be a queen for me. Talk about man isn't good to be alone, I tell you right now, I have lived the cross of loneliness and I'll tell you also that the day I asked Yahusha to be my Dad(more personal, maybe I'll tell my story one day). It has truly made me strong to take on the whole world physically, mentally, and spiritually.
Let's talk about anime, superheroes were my go to in the younger days which wasn't even that long ago, but I thought if I had a hero's mindset that I could impress my Father and sure enough I believe it did. Though the idea of a hero has changed in the past few years and through this I can't hold this distraction. Its too much, Hero's are applauded for killing, and the attack on Christianity has spread into the shows.
I've always felt alone, knowing that Father is with me, knowing that the angel is just sitting on the chair acknowledging me. I can tell you everyone, that I truly appreciate all of you, I see the smiles of happiness, the beauty that you hold onto, and the knowledge you keep hidden inside you. Believe it or not, its almost graduation time for me; where I graduate from being a senior to the world, where the Father has showed me the truth, the world is flat, the people in power are either ignorant or consumed by wickedness(I don't care if you're supporter of Trump, I only follow the will the Father shows me), and people that you know can't be shoved into info. all at one moment. All you can do is pray(constantly), and be patient for the Father to come and pick His Fruit.
Forever Loved; Forever Appreciated -Jun
Shalom Jun,
Wow you are on point, I mean spirituality and your maturity is way past my own experience at your age. Oh and I didn't mean to leave out courageous with your job. I understand completely about the gym, for sometime now I have to look down or divert my eyes. Yep the whole political system is fixed Smeltly Butler open my eyes to this. I just want to give you ENCOURAGEMENT and say stay on the Stright path brother, and keep praying.
I deeply appreciate it Brother, Godbless
@Eugenio Cotto Eugenio my brother think of yourself as a warrior in a battle for your life (literally)! This world is being consumed by darkness and we are the warriors of light. We must put on our Armour daily as Paul says in Ephesians 6;10-18. People think being a Christian is sooooo easy. Loving the Lord Jesus Christ with all our heart, mind, and soul is very easy and comforting. The hard part is the battle of the flesh (sin) and my brother it is hard very hard, but we must persevere and pray constantly. Jesus told us in Mark 13;13 And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved. Our reward is to be forever with the Lord in heaven, not burning in hell for eternity like those that deny Him. So keep up the good fight my friend God Bless you and peace be with you in your walk.
Thank you, Its been rough the past few days, but I know the Father has made me stronger from it.
Hey Kiddo!
I totally relate 2 UR understanding of the current world's sinful nature in all aspects and no one to have a real conversation about it with; I have been pondering UR message for a week now, Benjamin and Jeremy provided great messages & I wanted 2 reach out 2 U as well hopefully thru a little testimony as it compares 2 UR struggles. Not sure where 2 start so.... I am retired, do ride share on the side and is my limited human interaction (by choice); I have learned 2 B careful in conversations with customers not 2 TRIGGER any however have had the opportunity to plant SEEDS in a few when the Lord has opened that door. I am amazed how Cult-ed the Youth R of today, even my Youngest son (28) has fallen 2 it. God has blessed and opened UR eyes & heart 2 his truth. (U R 1 of the 144,000)
I have know of God, Jesus, have Guardian Angels & knowledge of End time Prophecies since baptized at the age of 11 however SIN still controlled me another 40 years until God finally said Enough's a Enough and my sinful ways with a betraying woman opened my eyes and I asked Jesus to Forgive me of those Sins and The Holy Spirit 2 replace those desires in my Heart. I know he has, I have been celibate 15 months now and will till wife/Queen # 3 finds ME. God will bring her 2 U when Ur fruits R ready 4 each other 2 enjoy as HIS intend way of living.
I feel UR pain and fight every day as well here in the Barely Clothed Millennial Mecca of Denver; Like Benjamin I divert my eyes as well and try 2 look at all women as My my Mother, Sister or Daughter now. Lust for the flesh has been my Nemesis since the age of 5; I can recall thoughts back then (by no ones influence) and believe/understand now it was the Sin dealt 2 me from my fore fathers that i had 2 recognize and overcome to thank God & Jesus 4 my Soul. Comprehending the nature of SIN, praying to God & Jesus every night to forgive mine & my Fathers Sins, putting my Armor on every day as Jeremy stated and knowing the Holy Spirit has my Sins on leashes has let me become more Blameless every day. Ask & Ye shall receive.
I hope I was able to provide some context troughs 1s Life, realize we all have the daily fight of the Flesh in one way or another & Thank U Eugenio 4 this opportunity to share my testimony 2 Jesus Again. Keep Praying for Wisdom 2 live Blamelessly every day.
Peace & Enjoy Life
We stand together in the faith brother, whatever comes our way we must be willing to let Father have complete control, so we may do righteously in his eyes. Even if we can't see where were heading next, we must have faith in Yehusha that everything is going to be alright. Godbless
Forever Loved; Forever Appreciated. Thank you
I just want to encourage you to continue saving yourself for marriage. It’s Yah’s way and the blessing will be so much better for you then to go the way of the world. The world often portrays marriage as limiting on your sex life. And if you live like the world, it will be. If you stay faithful, it will be opening a new world and you will feel blessed to be married, instead of cursed.
Thank U and I feel that same way.
I also have come to realize that Sex is also just this Fleshly desire and doesn't exist once were in R New Heavenly Bodies. Correct ? or Misunderstood?
we'll know soon enough, I honestly don't care for all that. The times are closing in, so all I'm doing is waiting and trying my best to keep the commandments. Spread the word, prophecy is being fulfilled
Shalom and How U doing Kiddo?
I am glad that isn't a Cross U R bearing & I constantly wonder how close we R.... What events have U seen & R referencing? What timeline do U think were in? My research has 2024 as the end of the Feast before the beginning of the Famine... aka. 7 yrs of tribulation. Thoughts Anyone?
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