The Messiah Complex
Who We Are
Hi Brittany :) As a women, I too have searched out this topic to the point of both wearing a head covering (for two years) and not wearing one any longer. Let me explain.
When I was first saved, I had a lot of garbage to get rid of, as many of us do when we come to the Truth. One of the strongholds I had in my life was vanity. Namely, with my hair and makeup. When I read the scriptures, though, I was convicted and wanted to become a woman of virtue. So I knew things had to change.
So, at the time, I stopped wearing makeup completely. This was a huge step for me as I had never gone into public without at least mascara or concealer on. I also threw away or donated 80% of my clothing that I deemed were immodest. The final thing I did was to start covering my head...completely.
You see, I had watched many videos of messianic or "Hebrew Roots" people testify of the change they experienced from covering their hair completely. So, I thought "well, I want that change in me so I'm going to do it!" So for about 6 months I covered my hair. And I will say, during that time head covering, dressing with long skirts and high collars shirts, with no make up on, something DID happen. Granted I was told I looked like Ma from Little House on the Prairie, but I didn't care because for the first time I felt like I was honoring my Creator. He truly humbled me and showed me the beauty in me that loving Him gave. I am still so very thankful for that journey and everything it taught me.
After about 6 months of covering my head completely, I ventured to cooler options (as a full head wrap was sooo hot in Minnesota in the summer) like bandanas and wide scarves. I continued in this because like many, I was also convicted by the scripture in 1st Corinthians. I understood it to mean I cloth covering, not just hair.
But something happened when Justin posted his Paul paper. While I'm still not sure where I sit on that matter, it caused me to really examine why I was making such a big lifestyle change based on the obscure verse from only one apostle. So, I started to look for it elsewhere, namely in the Torah. And guess what? No where are we commanded as women to wear a headcovering.
So this really made me curious. Why do so many people, including Jewish men, cover their heads? Well through lots of reading and digging through the pages of web results, I found two main contributing factors. First, the practice of Jewish men covering their head came out of Babylon. Apparently that was a pagan practice in which they would cover their head before they went into the pagan temple to pray. Before that, the only time men would cover their head was in times of mourning, shame or the like. It was a humbling in times of distress. But after the they came back from exile, it seems the Hebrews had adopted this practice that continues to this day.
The second reason may relate to why Paul said "because of the angels". That is, if you know about the history of the fallen angels, some of them mated with women and had giants. Who knows if this was always consensual. Anyways, one gets the impression from writings such as Enoch and others that these angels were consumed with lust, and things such as a womans hair (which is our glory right?) would be a temptation to them. So is it a far stretch to think that the women of that time might have adopted wearing a head covering out of fear, in hopes that it would deter any attention from the fallen ones? Could that tradition carried on until Paul's time? Maybe.
After learning these things, and making a few connections of my own, I decided I was going to lay down my scarves for good. And you know, it really feels great. I no longer feel guilty about wanting to pray at night but not wanting to get up and put a head covering on. I just pray to him. Because you know what, this is how He made me, and there is nothing to feel guilty about in that. I come before His throne with everything He gave and nothing more and it feels absolutely right.
So, to end this ridiculously long response I would say this. Did wearing a headcovering help me to overcome vanity and feelings the need to always have my hair "done"? Definitely. Do I think it is commanded by scripture to do so? No. So it is up to you. Do you feel like it would help you on your walk? Take to Him in prayer, He is always faithful.
Blessings to you sister. I hope this helps in some way ❤
I had a very similar experience and agree 100%.
Thank you Jordan! That insight has helped me understand much better :)
Amen! 🙏 Thank you for the testimony sister that's almost exactly what Jacquie experienced as well!
Thank you for sharing that! I would agree as well, it is not an instruction or teaching from Torah, definitely an individual choice, not “bound” by scripture at all. It is too bad that probably many thousands (if not millions) of women through the centuries have been led to feel guilty, and made to feel “controlled” over the years. Praise Yah you (and other women as well) have been liberated from yet another unscriptural teaching by the truth of Yah’s Torah. Hallelujah! ❤️