I know you are telling the truth about Paul, back in 2009 and when I started down this path to learn Elohim's truth and not man's and not my own, I could not figure out why Yahusha needed a special disciple for the gentiles if we are to be grafted in, for we are one in the tribe, or why Elohim did not stop the 11 from choosing a new Apostle if he already had picked one (Paul) because this now made 13, and not the 12, as the shadow of the 12 tribes. I never could put this out of my mind, and a lot of times when reading the word, parts would clash and seem to contradict one another. I know that to get to the whole truth we must over come many stumbling blocks. as I stated when I started down this road in 2009, I came to my 1st block LAW, 2nd block Jesus - Yahusha, 3rd so on and so on, I have lost family, friends and been shunned by society, my children want nothing to do with me. Justine, I know if we cannot get over a stumbling block and we get stuck, then we cannot truly mature in Messiah, (as we can see in the 7 churches) Are Beloved Messiah tells the churches if they overcome, what he will give them, this is the narrow road. If people would just stop to think how does Satan fool the world, he use's his false church to insert false doctrine, are they not the ones that chose which books to put in and take out????? He told us he came to bring a sword, and it is a mighty sword.
We mite lose everything on this earth, traveling down this narrow road, and at times very painful and lonely, but look what we GAIN. Never surrender, keep fighting for the truth.